I’ve never found my “perfect job” — not because I didn’t try, but because I was never made for doing the same thing day in, day out.
I enjoy routine because it gives me structure, safety, and clarity… but I also get bored quickly if every day looks exactly the same.
I need balance: consistency with room to think, problem-solve, and adapt.
What I do know is this: I have a strong sense of justice. Right and wrong matter deeply to me. That’s why law always drew me in.
The Parts of Work I Truly Loved
In conveyancing, I loved the methodical nature of it all — the tracking, tracing, and ensuring every detail was in place. There was comfort in the routine, but also enough variation in each case to keep my mind engaged. And the best part? Handing people their keys. That moment mattered. It was joy, relief, and a new beginning all wrapped into one — and I loved being part of that.
Probate offered a similar balance. Again, the structure appealed to me — making sure estates were handled properly, accounts balanced, and everything reached a clear conclusion. No two estates were ever the same, and that mix of routine and difference kept me grounded without feeling stuck.
Criminal law fascinated me too. I was drawn to the complexity and the human stories behind each case. But it also exposed me to the worst moments in people’s lives. That emotional weight was heavy sometimes.
The Jobs I Didn’t Get to Have
Chronic pain and anxiety shaped my working life in ways I didn’t choose. They limited my energy, my consistency, and my confidence. I often wonder what my career might have looked like if anxiety hadn’t held me back from college, or if pain hadn’t dictated how much I could give.
I think about the paths I didn’t get to fully explore — and who I might have been without those barriers.
Redefining a “Perfect Job”
Maybe my perfect job was never about a title. Maybe it was always about purpose, structure, variety, and meaning.
Work that has a rhythm — but not a rut.
Work that uses my attention to detail, my empathy, and my need for both routine and mental stimulation.
And maybe — just maybe — my perfect job is still unfolding.
Because even now, I’m tracking, tracing, organising thoughts, offering clarity, and helping others make sense of complex experiences — just in a different way.
Sometimes the job doesn’t disappear.
It just changes shape.
