Well, I don't know about you, but after quite awhile, I've been anticipating this post, just waiting to write it.
If you were following, well, I decided to leave my blog's 100th post for the eve of my birthday which also happens to be my blog's 2nd anniversary. Just a brief history, 29 January 2008, I started off in blogspot, then after awhile, I moved to mediarakyat.net and then not long after, shifted to mejournals, here, and I believe I'm here to stay. =)
So, how was the last 16 years of life?
Well, I started off as a kid, naughty and talkative kid wherever I went, and so friendly even to a point I would let anyone carry me (according to my mum). I used to like lying, *gasp*, and still have clear memories on the times I have to bend over and get spanking from my mum, but it all was for the better. Entering primary school was no different, still remember the times I chased people around the school or played 'pepsi cola' and how I used to be the MASTER of it, I owned that game. I also almost stood a chance in my school's table tennis team and I just had one more set to win, but nah, didn't make it.
Very soon, I shifted to over to Selangor, and at first, it was YEA! But after awhile, it was HAIZ.. But then, my life in Kidzone started. I've mentioned kidzone in my blog many times already, so you could check it out if you don't know what it is. As I starting to get used to the lifestyle, my spiritual life then started to grow and accelerate so much more. This was when I started to change from kid-ways to more perhaps matured-ways. (Although you see me sometimes acting like a kid, remember, its ACTING. =). As I used to tell my mum when I was in primary school, that somehow, I never had problems mixing around with people. And no doubt, changing to Puay Chai when I was in primary 4 wasn't a problem as I blended in quite well. Then came primary 6 being the tai ko and bullying prefects (ironic eh, since i'm one now). And in primary 6, being under peer pressure and facing teenage-hood, I had my first girlfriend! *gasp* I bet many of you don't know about this, even my family. But very soon I broke up, because I was convicted by God through what my pastor shared about BGR (aka BurGeR or Boy Girl Relationship). Ever since I was proud to tell people that I've gone through it, and having that kind of relationship is a no no at this point.
Well, another big part as I came over is, Kidzone, as mentioned earlier, made up a lot of my life. Starting as being a kid, spectator, to a helper and teacher. Its been an excellent journey and a joyful one no doubt. Meeting people like Ps Andy, Uncle Kim Soon, Aunty Karen, and so many more, especially those who faithfully send me back home every saturday. All their little effort or even much, impacted me one way or the other, they all filled some sort of gap in my life, whether big or small, it was all important nevertheless. Here, this was I grew so much more in my walk with Jesus. Despite not going for youth, I always pressed on to go for Kidzone, and God has blessed me so much. My commitment was so high that there were certain areas that my mum stopped me from going, that was how much I loved it.
So what about my secondary school life? Form 1, 2 passed like wind. If there was anything to remember, I was the assistant head prefect, but the years after that, I regretted not doing so much things, so much things I want to do now but can't do. So form 3 came and PMR was the pressure. Thankfully, God helped me to ace it, except for my chinese. Then quickly was science stream, form 4. Tough year doing many new subjects and going into 'club politics', but although I didn't get what I wanted, God showed me that He had more things planned for me, and it was evident. I managed to buck up my final term exam results, and the year soon ended with me going for 4 camps during the school holidays.
28 days from the 1st of January, and here I am today.
This is going to be a longer post than you think, cause I just have one more thing to write.
You would have noticed, I changed my blog title from "The LIFE Bomber" to "Building a ship" Why? you might ask.
During this years Kidzone Teacher's Retreat, Ps Andy talked about relationship and he touched about blogging, for say 3 minutes? But whatever he said made me do what I'm doing now.
I made one very big mistake throughout my 2 years of blogging, I've always wanted to write to "impact lives and change lives". I've realized one thing, that I can impact lives, but I cannot change lives. Why? This is because I can only do so much, only God can change lives, and takes you to believe it. There was nothing wrong in my previous blog title, because I really just wanted to share my life experiences with everyone. But I also feel that this year, what I really lack, is a relationship with many people. Many times its just high and bye, or perhaps touching on homework. But have I really build a strong relationship with people? Yes, with some, but not with many.
This year and from now on, I want to learn to build that relationship with many people. I have this vivid imagination, that if one day, someone comes to me and says "Wai Leem! I'm very touched by your post!" And then sadly, I have to secretly peek a glance at the name tag and cook up something to encourage or to seem as if I understand what he/she is going through. This ain't the way its suppose to be. I don't just want to cook up some words of encouragement and be off with it. I really want to know that person and really be a what a friend means, that is to know someone WELL.
I'm going for a start!
And now, thanks to a group of AWESOME friends I have in school, I'm off for my pre-birthday party!
17 years old in a few hours time,
Wai Leem =)
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