On the 28, 29 of October and 2 of November, I took this great opportunity, and chance, to NOT GO TO school. Yes, JOY indeed.
Most of the time, I still woke up relatively early, around 8, though much later than usual, and I would be doing my own things. On the computer, books, some chinese essays and A LOT of cleaning to do.
It was also interesting even as I was cleaning my room, then certain objects that I saw, letters, magazines, name tags, booklets, etc. just brought me into memories even as I think back of what I could have done, or said, and some stuff I shouldn't have also done.
In the midst of all these, one thing I know is that it has past and now, I have to move on, learning from it. But the more amazing thing was, there also were certain things that have not changed in me, and I try remembering it, find ways to change, and stuff. All these started, as I clean my room. So the moral of the story is? Clean your room. Sometimes, you might be, just might be surprised at what you might find laying around in those drawers.
So yea, 3 quarters of my time was cleaning, the rest was reminiscing the past. So yes, it was a joyous time that I had at home. Yet.. things were going on in school, did I miss out anything?
For the past 3 days that I didn't go to school, I did ask what was going on, and did any teacher teach and such. Yes, most of the time, the answer made me feel that I made the right choice not to go to school. Yet, today, Jo Fan asked me a question "do we have to be there for something?"
At first, I was like "there's something on that I need to be there?" Soon after, I started to see the light in a whole different manner, especially when I read this story. To cut a long story short, A man saw a boy throwing starfishes into the sea and the boy replied, the tide is pulling away, if they don't get into the sea, they will all die. But the man looked at the stretch of the beach and there were just too many starfishes, so he said, "you would not be able to throw all of them into the sea, it makes NO DIFFERENCE." The boy just looked at him, then bend down and throw another starfish into the sea and said, "It made a difference for that one" Wow
Yes, at times, we really cannot impact everyone, we cannot please everyone, but whoever we can please, whoever we can bring an impact, we can start to make a difference with that one life.
What hit me was, what am I doing here at home? I have the opportunity to make a difference, but I'm not doing it in school, why? However, remember earlier about what I said about cleaning the drawers, I realized, how can impact if I hadn't "clean my drawers" and have the desire to change? I would still be the unpolished Wai leem, having fellowship with friends until only a certain level, then other factors become limiting factors.
How joyous it is to stay at home though working yet relaxing, but am I missing out on what I could bring to others?
Ans: Yes it is joyous, but just like Jonah who needs to be mould before he could proclaim the gospel, I too need to realize certain areas in my life, change, and then make that difference. Yes I do miss out on some stuff, but sometimes, sacrifice brings much good later.
So I'm going to skip another day of school and also next monday and tuesday because plans were pre-planned way way ahead, I cannot cancel them, but I will go to school and be a friend to everyone around me.
mercy,
Wai Leem
p/s: My point being, not going to school isn't bad, but we need to also have the balance between the 2. If not going to school is over done, it segregates us from our social life, then that's not good. My next monday and tuesday are plans that are not personal but i'm out with somebody, and thus social element is there.
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