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Piece of Crap

Posted on | February 19, 2010 | No Comments

Ouch. BOLD title. NOT spelled wrongly though.

I just did something really stupid today and I thought I must post this. I don't think I would want to explain the situation. But it was about stupid decisions made by my stupid self because of stinking pride and ending up with a disastrous result. Feeling very very bad.

The whole emotion, I felt it wasn't me, I don't do things like that. That's not very Jo Fan.

But come to think of it, might THAT be the problem itself? Might it be ME and MY BODY that caused the problem? Might it because I totally ignored about God's way and decided to do it MY WAY?

Yes. Come to think of it. That was the problem, maybe somewhere during the holidays I've went off path a bit, maybe I was so well fed I somehow forgot about what it is all about. Maybe THIS is how God is telling me to get back to business and that I am not as good as I think, and I can do NOTHING without Him. That I am a piece of crap without HIM and HIS WAYS. This is His reminder to me.

Yes it is. Not maybe. It definately is.

It's time to strip it all down again. In realization that I am who I am, I am at where I am at because I am saved by the Grace of God and the Love He has given. I can't be who I am without the strength He gives and the wisdom He provides. I can't lead the right way and speak the right things without Him living in me first. I do stupid things that stresses people out without His guidance. I am NOTHING but a piece of crap without Him.

But I am everything He made me to be WITH Him living IN ME!?I AM BECAUSE HE IS. Because I live for Him, because He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. Because He gives abundant life. He gives fullness and satisfies the spiritual thirst. He gives joy and strength so that I may too LOVE more people, and get my heart broken for those that break His and to show this awesomeness too others who are going through the same thing. That there is HOPE, LIFE and LOVE in Christ.

Thank you God. Thanks for hitting me awake again. I am now back in business for You. =) AWESOME!

He disciplines in the weirdest of ways.

But man, life is really awesome when we really take THE WAY. =D Promise! ?As you can see, I can't even stand 10 minutes living for myself. xD

Love you people! ALL OF YOU! haha! (learned to really express this lately. credits to awesome sister Janice. =D )

JoFan. Servant of God. BIA.

This sings it out totally!

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I just thought I needed to post this

Posted on | February 19, 2010 | No Comments

Well I didn't plan on posting this, but I couldn't tahan.. it WAS my CG leader's birthday! haha!

Well, I think he shouldn't be flattered to much, Mel and Janice already did that part. Quite cheesy. xD

Oh well, all I must say is that whether or not the system has changed or whether or not I'm already a cg leader myself or whether or not I'm in your triad, you're always my cg leader la dude. =)

It's pretty awesome how this dude can really listen to me and listen as if he has all the time in the world, talk til late night and advices on issues, encourage and just be that.... brother i think... Someone I'm learning to be like who's able to be patient to members and to listen out and help them with that same patience.

Perhaps one thing I learned from him so far is that being a leader or mentor to that member is about the LONG RUN. It's about establishing that relationship and that accountability with each other. That's how it can full work out. That's from our experience.

Oh yea.. photography stuff... and all that... I'm learning stuff too from him, so cool ar.. hahaha! Great help on the photography side for the department I'm leading too.. thanks man! for everything! So far... haha! Rock on!

oh BOY! (quotes mel who needs to get her BOY grow up into a MAN) I got into the cheesy stuff d....

right right..... not getting you anything, and money either thank you very much. hahahaha! FIVE SIS! xD

ANYWAYS LA.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAMUEL LEE JOO THIAM!

You're always that old (not beating Alex's ancientness yet).. so what the heck....

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I Tried

Posted on | February 16, 2010 | 2 Comments

I tried, I tried hard...

I eat

I sleep

I do less exercise

I eat more

I eat double

I jump

I sleep

I pull myself

I eat again

I TRY to get FAT.

AND IT'S NOT WORKING!!

GAH...

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Relationships vs Handphones

Posted on | February 15, 2010 | 4 Comments

Oh well, I still have time. Now, It's quite funny and sad at the same time that my relatives can get confused with some of my xxx's boyfriends and girlfriends coz they had flippin too many! Gosh man, though it's encouraging that my aunt said that as far as she knows me, I'd never be like that, haha! OF COURSE I WON'T!

I suppose it all boils down to your standards of what a relationship is. Is it so simple and cheap that you can just go into it when you FEEL like it or in some people's word.. feel RIGHT? Does a relationship stand on emotions alone? It's much more than mutual emotions I'd say. And THAT'S why people don't encourage relationships when your hormones are still raging and can easily take over your mind.

Anyways, get to know more people, know them more. NO, it's not a mate hunting spree.. =.= It's just getting to know people, you'd find people as awesome as you.. haha! And then you can SS. xDDD? That's healthy.. heh!

Uncle Lai Wei once said to YC , "If you found girl/guy and he/she loves God with all her/his heart, nice, have a good heart and compliments you well... and all that.. (can't remember what else he said), then GO FOR HER/HIM!"

Don't misunderstand though, I'm sure there's a long period of getting-to-know. Be friends and then good friends and then listen to God whether the next step should be taken. If not, go back to step one. haha! Something like that la..

Can't believe I'm even talking about this, but I think it's very important. I'm kinda sick of people changing bf/gf like handphones... sheesh! For me, my stand is clear, my future wife should be my first gf.. haha! I think it's completely possible if you would start off with the right attitude and high standards of a relationship in mind. yeah! No worries, God already had the awesome plan all layed out, all you're responsible to do is just not to screw it up and go with your own way.. It's like "Dude, I wanted to give you a thousand bucks but you end up pick pocketing a 10 buck. LOSER!" hahaha!

So my very beloved form 3 friends... haha! Chill yea... hehehe...

JoFan. Be patient, He WILL do Greater Things than THESE (your own emotions.. falling for hormone rages..)....

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So how was my Valentines?

Posted on | February 15, 2010 | No Comments

Well, the snacks were great. Crispy, tasty and crunchy. Going along with it were either some soft drinks or the ol packet drinks. And the angpaus that come complimentary. How cool is that? Have I mentioned some mahjong sessions with cousins and the playing of my DSLR and and.. the service at night? haha!

Oh Valentines... right right... *post edited... too bad. too late if you wanna read on... hahahahaha!!*

Thank you very much.

JoFan. Awesome people go to Malacca (right? Laine and Mel? haha!). With the load of them going to Ipoh, you can already observe that the population of awesome people are not many. Oh well..

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Champions Now Yellow

Posted on | February 14, 2010 | No Comments

Yes, I just HAd to make something out of the word CNY. To the Kuning fellas and MR CHAN... Kuning... ACTIVATE!! And I thought I had to be cheesily PATRIOTIC when I was elected into the committee. But as time goes by, i realized my house DOES ROCK and we're awesome! Bumblebee (from Transformers) too!

Anyways, CNY.. yes. For once my dad brought back to Malacca his laptop and I get to use it! haha! No need to fight with the kids on DotA on the comp. Sorry if I'll be writing a lot, that's coz for once in the past 4 centuries, I ACTUALLY have all the time in the world to use and it's flippin awesome!

So I got a shiny new DSLR for the note of those who have yet to know about it. Praise the Lord for it! For my dad! And his bonus!! hahaha! It's a Canon EOS 1000D. Say whatever you want Aaron Ng and some Nikon users. =P I'm a Canon man! *wink*

The whole CNY so far has been really productive, both sides of my family (dad and mom's) have experienced pro people in photography. And since they too have all the time in the world to spare, my whole CNY so far has been like a series of workshops. I just came back from a portrait workshop if I'd name it that, haha! Pictures are pretty, will be up on my facebook once I get back. Try to edit less. *wink* Yesterday was Macro and taking pictures of light at night. Fireworks too! Might get a 50mm lens soon.

I missed lion dance this morning though, left for mother's side family gathering and that little cool workshop. And also that "In Between" game where my cousin won 400+ bucks. Not like I'd join, but wahliao! I'm gonna make him buy me something!

And have I mentioned that besides photography and politics, the LAMENESS runs in the blood too? I thought my dad and me were lame enough, then my uncles came into the picture.. *slaps forehead* So I DO get my roots from somewhere.. haha! Pretty cool how God creates and plays with His 'test tubes' and produce creatures like us to be who we are from something He did the same to. Wow...

Oh yes, on tuesday it's gonna be my granma's big 81st birthday bash! 400+ relatives are coming. It's gonna be a heck of a photo session, food and KACHING! ANGPAUS!! I'd get that lens in no time!! Speaking of which, I think I no longer have fixed meal times, i'm eating all throughout and am bloated almost full time. haha! Even as I type this on my bed, I'm attempting to get FAT, but as I told Mel, I DOUBT it'll work. Sad for me, sad for Josh Chang. He'd continue to be jealous.. Sigh. Haha!

Alright, I really want to keep on writing but I'm considerate to you, so thank me! haha! *SS moment*

No la, having rehearsal soon for the worship session for service later at the local small chinese church, where it's only full house on the first day of CNYs when people come back to village.. haha! Playing guitar! YEAH! =D

Oh well.. til later.. Rock on!

JoFan. Blogging all the way from Machap Baru, Malacca! =D
I think CNY is a second chance for us to reflect upon the past year, our lives and also ho are we gonna live for the next year. A second new year for a second chance, how cool is that eh?

Well, this song is really cool. Read the lyrics as you start to reflect. You might just get something out of it..

The world begins
With new born skin
We are right now
You're needle girl
In a haystack world
We are right now

You're breathing in
The highs and lows
We call it living

- Chorus -
In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accident we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime

Don't let go
Don't give up hope
All is forgiven
You're breathing in
The highs and lows
We call it living

- Chorus -
In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accident we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime

All is not lost
All is not lost
Become who you are
It happens once in a lifetime

- Chorus -
In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accedint we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime alive
We are once in a lifetime

In this needle and haystack life

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Category: The Diary

And here we go

Posted on | February 9, 2010 | 1 Comment

Looking at my chinese essay book eye to eye, nose to nose, cheek to cheek.... I DECIDED TO BLOG INSTEAD! I mean, I got myself into the mood to write, but man, I'll leave superficial essays on corruption for later, I'd rather write some REAL stuff.

So predictably, Zambry won the court case to be the Chief Minister of Perak. Such injustice never ends. The bad guys run free and the good guys get hunted down like they're behind the planning of the third world war. So Sai-lackofattention-ful lodge a police report because someone said something bad about him on Facebook. Awhh.. the poor kid... NOT! Hasn't he gotten enough attention from the media already? Someone who rather put down his pride as a man to get public attention and what else i dunno... what in the world? As I said in some tweets ago, I'm giving up on this pointless drama. DUDE! We have a COUNTRY TO CHANGE! What's more important than that? Money? Fame? Power? Why are kids running the country la dei... Sigh! SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!

Ahh... off to something happier.. =)

I think my awesome non-biological sister is AWESOME! I just had to say this! =D

Tian Yoon was so excited the other morning as she ran to tell me that my sister looked exactly like me and how she can circle out the similar features of our faces if she had a graphic tablet... JUST TO FIND OUT THAT I have no idea which sister she was talking about and EVEN SHOCKED to end up knowing that she's my awesome long-lost non-biological sister JANICE KHAW! =P

The awesome sibling picture. haha! Taken during the KLPJ SCF Leader's Convention last Saturday. We left early and took a cab (with the help of the oh-mel-John Sugar) to church together for Alex's IMPACT meeting. That was a random note la actually... =P You seriously have NO IDEA how much we have in common..

Sis, I'm listening to the squeaky shoes again as I'm typing this... So tempting.. =.= haha! Freezing HOT! xD ~~Inside convo~~

Oh everyone, my editing skills improved don't ya think? hahaha!

Everything has been crazily hectic these few weeks, I wish I had more time for my devotions, my sleep and studies and blog.. In that order probably...

By the way, Justin has been a good boy lately. Just for the note of it. =P

Thank God for awesome sis Janice and the loa Justin la actually, If not I would've died doing those (in fact, THESE) annoying homework....

All in all, despite the stress and busyness... I really wanna thank God for everything.. EVEN THE STRESS... I'm sure I'd be built up so much more in character after this season of stress. But it HAS REALLY been great so far I MUST SAY... =D

Oh yes, I thousand apologies to my 5S3 awesome classmates too. Sorry I can't really perform fully my duties as a KT and to organize awesome stuff and PROPERLY handle the class page and all... I have my commitments in stuff and IS worked out enough.. =S I'm no superman... haha! SOMEDAY I should really buy Suat Li a drink or something, she helped TONNES in these class businesses... REALLY. I can give up my KT badge any day man... She deserves to go Harvard. hahahaha!

I realized a new passion I have. To really trust younger people in doing things. Sometimes I'd rather trust them more than the older ones. Humble enough to learn, passionate enough to serve. I love younger people! Now I know why the older ones love me! hahaha! Okay, that was an SS add-on. But really, It's great GREAT encouragement to see them rising up to take their place. (Deja vu of song lyrics? YEA!) I love working with them!

I guess I should really get back to my superficial and cheesy chinese essay on corruption... I loved this bloging session although It's a little info-all-around.

oh one more thing to be noted, I lied in my English oral presentation and I have not gotten over it! I FLIPPIN' SUPPORTED 1MALAYSIA!! Yea, meaning I blasphemed in front of the WHOLE class... what a disgrace! "1Malaysia DOES WORK" *BLEK!*

Alright! I shall quit talking about those tragic memories. See you soon in the next post. =)

JoFan.

Here's the Elmo SONG!! =D Never fails to put a smile on my face.... And Snuffy and Big Bird is so sarcastic...hillarious.. anyway, here!

And this is funny too! haha! No, I don't think I'm too stressed out.. xD You guys just don't have childhood la if you think so.. haha!

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One heck of an awesome day!

Posted on | February 7, 2010 | No Comments

I'm sorry i can't get to update as often anymore... it's been some really really crazy days.... and I THINK I'm loving it. Well, except the fact that I cant blog that often. But my twitter and facebook are still very constantly updated. Soo..... yea! =D

Now, Yesterday was as the title suggested... one heck of an awesome day. And since I don't really have time to go into it as well. LET THE PICTURES SPEAK. You'll get what I mean.. =) So..

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=144875&id=719209141&page=2

THERE! =D

And favourite picture of the day. http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3523389&id=719209141

I love my new editing skills. haha!

Thanks Wai for letting me use his DSLR for the day. Made lots of difference! =)

"I'll get back to you.." -Alex Ng

"Common sense la.." -Alex Ng

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When Jo Fan meets Ian

Posted on | January 28, 2010 | No Comments

What do you think would happen when the two definitions of LAME meets?

CLICK HERE TO FIND OUT!

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Philosophy

Posted on | January 24, 2010 | No Comments

"The simpler the website, the more thought behind it. The more complex the website, the less thought behind it. Simplicity derived from complexity" - Bernard Ong. Geek quote of the day!

I never thought that website developing can even have philosophies behind them. I've always thought that a site is a site, where info just flows and has nice designs.

Berns broke that stereotype in my head when we were having a quick short talk on the website that we're gonna work on. Websites are not part of?marketing?or branding processes. If done well it can actually make a lot of difference in everything else that we maybe doing offline.

hmm.. oh well.. i think i'd stop the geek philosophy talk here. I have better purposes for my blog.. hahaha!

JoFan. Yes, it kinda means more work. The question is, what are you working for? What difference would it make? How much can you do with your own strength?

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