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Voyeur

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 17-01-2010

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Sometimes you just feel tired, feel weak.
When you feel weak, you feel like you want to just give up.
But you've got to search within you.
Have got to find that inner strength
And just pull that s*** outta you
And get that motivation, to NOT give up
And NOT be a quitter.
No matter how bad you want to just fall flat on your face
And collapse.

Till I Collapse~Eminem

I am not pleased with myself.

I am not pleased about the fact that my body can't keep up with what my mind wants.

But it will.

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Can I tell you a secret?

I have this desire.

To want to be photographed in

....

....

....

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a dramatic pose!

I want it to be like this:

You know. Carrying a gun, looking over my shoulder coolly with my face covered by a visor. The rain is a bonus effect if can.

Or like this:

With me walking out of fire! NICE.

Or this also can:

Jumping off a high place and soaring down professionally.

By the way I want this to be my pose when I go for my next bungy jump!

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Just keep running, running, and running, running, and running running.

Till my legs give out.


Test Run

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 10-01-2010

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Ah...the weekend. Nothing could ever smell sweeter than not-school.

So...a new year. A new class location. A new seating position. A new bunch of teachers etc etc...

It was a pretty darn good week I would say.

To begin with it started with my birthday surprise in the Ed Board room  with Love Gang + Rachel Gan and Sean Beh. Nothing could possibly beat that as a year-opener. And to answer someone's blog post: Yes you guys made me happy. Very very happy indeed =)

The week was followed up by what could be considered as mini-miracles to say the least.

For one thing, Mr Wong KK is ACTUALLY teaching Physics.*cue expression of utter shock, awe and fainting*

Like, he spent the whole 2 periods talking about waves and demonstrating the different wave types rather than talking about being humble and having knowledge and going to Harvard and ZOMG I WAN TO DIE....We still don't know if the effects are permanent, but we're keeping our fingers crossed. And you know what? Now that he's teaching, it makes me want to actually learn Physics too. I guess it's because now that I see him taking the subject seriously I also feel compelled to learn it well too. Sigh...Why couldn't all this have happened last year? Oh well.

And then there was that magical moment when we were supposed to be having Moral class with Pn Chia but then the afternoon sessions students came and the Mr Song talked to Pn Chia for a while. And then while we were patiently waiting for her to start she just returned and said : Baik lah kamu semua boleh tamat satu waktu pagi hari ini.

............................YAY!!!!!

On Friday there was the Year Opening Mass organised by us the Catholic Students Society. After a week's worth of "rehearsals" (basically sanctioned ponteng), we finally managed to pull it off pretty ok, considering that the whole afternoon session and the teachers and Pn Lee Kim Lai and the Marist Brothers and all attended. Inevitably, there were a few blunders here and there, but at least the afternoon session students weren't talking too loudly and disturbing the mass.

But it was actually pretty scary because we had just learned about the church bombings that morning before mass started. And to compound things further Father Simon even used "the A word" again during the homily. Before I left school I even covered my CSS shirt, just to be safe. So yeah. Mass. In school. Church bombing. Very scary **** indeed.

As to personal things. Well. I am somewhat proud to say that Operation Renaissance is off to a start, if somewhat shaky. I still napped a little bit in the afternoon during the week, and napped even more today (Saturday). But at least I actually studied more than what I usually did

The even more awesome thing that happened this week was that I exercised!!! Oh yeah!

And it wasn't just the acuh tak acuh kind that I usually do. It was the kind where I was running for 2km! (on a treadmill), followed by 2.5km on the next try! I feel so psyched man!

All in all this was a pretty good week lah. Not counting the occasional slip-ups, my unfinished homework and some church fire-bombings, I actually kinda look forward to the weeks that come.

4 Minutes

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 19-12-2009

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For the first time in 16 years, I will not be celebrating Christmas in Malaysia.

I will not be celebrating it with the extended family. I will not be opening presents under the tree on Christmas Day. I will not be going to church (that one the most sakit).

Instead I will be halfway around the world in an Islamic country whereby Christmas is not even an official holiday.

I will be spending Christmas in Egypt.

In a way, I'm kinda glad to be away from the family for a while. Let's just say that I'm a little tired.

I won't be home until about 30th December which effectively means that the year has already ended for me.

Looking back, it's hard not to feel a tinge of sadness. I wish I had more time. More time to spend with friends (assuming they would be around and free). More time to actually put Operation Renaissance into proper effect. And perhaps more time to commence the lesser Operation Crackdown too.

I'm kinda grateful that people invented clocks to tell time. Imagine if we still used hourglasses and you were looking at one when time was running out. I would think the image of sand trickling away is more panic inducing than a second hand ticking away.

Then again, I would keep wishing for more time anyway, since I can never seem to make the time I have any more useful.

And....I don't know what to do in the final hours preceding my departure. It seems anything I do makes me feel guilty and unproductive.

Gah...

*Wolf Whistle*

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 13-12-2009

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I think I'm reaching that point where my hormones would be at an all time high.

As of the last few months, I find that I cannot look at a girl friend (note the seperation, thus bearing a different meaning from girlfriend) or any girl for that matter without one or more of the following thoughts popping into my head.

Hm...she's kinda cute

Okay...she's pretty

Wow... She's beautiful

or

OMG dang she is hot!

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I'm scared.

A Journey of a Thousand Miles…

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 07-12-2009

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To this date, the long planned grand project...

Operation Renaissance

or also known as Project Regenesis a.k.a Codename Phoenix,

has yet to begin.

...

Time is running out.

And All I Grasp is but Ash

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 08-11-2009

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I realise now that I've been running away the whole time. And yet I still keep running.

Zombie Cullen

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 27-10-2009

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During the recent examinations, my mind was suddenly flooded with a whole bunch of story ideas (this being an effort to avoid studying, naturally).

Short stories or long ones, I feel really psyched about them and I feel like I really have to actually put those thoughts to paper before they vanish completely.

The main thing I want to write is about assassins. I'm so hyped up on Assassin's Creed 2's soon to be release that I can't think of nothing else to write but assassins.

Another idea came to me kinda while playing Left 4 Dead. Imagine this.

What would happen if a vampire (which drinks blood), drinks the blood of a zombie (whose blood is infected)?

I think you would get a Zombie Vampire! (not Vampire Zombie, that's a different thing)

So I want to at least write a short story about zombie vampires, and I actually had the thought of using the characters of Twilight for that purpose.

Vampires. Werewolves. Zombie Vampires. What could go wrong? :)

Anyway, before I end, here's a tagline that I came up with for the assassin story.

There are two kinds of people in this world.

Those who attract attention,

and those who seek attention.

The perfect assassin is the one who repels attention.

What You Don’t Know…

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 21-10-2009

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Sometimes it's the silence that you should be afraid of.

The Butterfly Effect

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 18-10-2009

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With all that's been going on in my life, all that I've been through,

All the chances I took, all the ones that I didn't,

All the people I loved, all the people I took for granted,

All that I've found, and all that I yearn, no, beg, to discover,

I'm surprised I haven't broken yet.

But I will.

One day, when the right catalyst is triggered,

I don't know by who, or what, or when, or how,

But one day it'll all pour out, like a dam.

First it may leak out, perhaps it already is,

Then the pressure will increase, keep increasing,

Cracks appear,

And then,

The dam breaks.

The flood will pour forth.

Everything that I've kept inside all this time,

All that I've wanted to say, couldn't say, wouldn't say,

Every fear, every doubt, every regret,

Will see the light of day.

Thus far, ignorance has been my only bulwark against this,

But one day,

One day,

It will break.

Two Lies Don’t Make A Truth

Posted by nicholaslyx | Posted in Random Ramblings | Posted on 26-09-2009

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In conjunction with the all round exam spirit, let's do a little bit of Mathematics now shall we?

Let's begin.

People I hate = Liars

And during an exam period ( and I stress exam period ONLY)

People I hate= Everyone

Why?

Because,

Everyone = Liars (remember, this is only during an exam period. I normally love everyone because they're not liars : )

And everyone is a liar because

Liar = People who whine, complain and "claim" that they are going to screw a subject(s).

And we can prove they are liars based on the observation at the end of the exam period.

There you go. Mathematics revision for you before you go! : )

PS: I am not a liar because my observation is in sync with my hypothesis. And everyone doesn't necessarily include everyone. You know which one you are. Oh yeah, and I love everyone k?