For about 2 weeks or so, this has been my profile picture on MSN.

For those of you not in the know, this is the Prophet of Regret, one of the main antagonist in the game of Halo 2. He is one of 3 High Prophets, leaders of the alien alliance called the Covenant, that hopes to achieve the Great Journey by activating the Halo rings.

The only reason I used this picture and why this post has any relation at all to him is that I think the Prophet of Regret should rightfully be my new title (following Fuhrer and Kommissar).

There are many regrets in my life, that I've come to realise within the year. Regrets about family, about friends, about school, about life.

However, more often than not, whenever I try to discuss these matters, people just tell me to "forget about it" or "get over it".

What I think they're forgetting to tell me is the process before I get to that point. Acknowledgment.

Because I believe that skipping straight to Forgetting and Getting Over is simply akin to Denial. You don't acknowledge the problem, and you pray to God it doesn't acknowledge you.

We need to acknowledge the past, the remorse, the regrets. Only once that is done can we safely put them behind us and Forget.

I regret not giving it my all

I regret putting off my search for God at one point

I regret not taking chances

I regret being blinded by that which proved to be just an illusion

I regret not being appreciative

I regret not cherishing the moments

I regret not embracing friendships that were there all along

I regret putting off things that mattered most

I regret not finding my own path

I regret the hurt I've caused

I regret the misplaced hatred and prejudice I once had

I regret wanting to move too fast

I regret not taking a stand

I regret hiding

I regret running away

Most of all, I regret not loving

I am Nicholas, Prophet of Regret

And my Great Journey is long overdue.

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