This year's EMERGE (woohoo) is kinda challenging and faith stretching for me because im actually taking part in competitions i dislike - spelling bee and marching (footdrill... which i intially dunno what it means). Well, what that is even unbelievable is I actually scored medals for my cluster by these 2 competition. Okay... so this is how it goes... Foot drilling was fine or simply awesome... but spelling bee = disaster (was).

I was asked to join spelling bee because there was not enough people from my cluster to participate in this competition. Well, thanks to my "yes yes" attitude, I said yes, and im in... and guess what... the prelims is the next day and I hav like 1500 words to study in a few hours time. I thought it was gonna be easy... but with the pronunciation and all... OH MY!!! It is worse than word power! (well, maybe because i dislike spelling and prefer memorising) That night, I was in church till 12am, practicing drama for drama compertition. I couldn't control my emotions and cried, thinking of quiting, but something in me just ask me to hold on. When I reach home, I thought of printing those words out to read in my bed, cos my dad was very mad of me coming home late, so it won't be wise to study that time. Unfortunately, there was 150 pages to print and printing those out is a NONO!!!! I couldn't think of anything to do at that moment, so I sleep -.-".

The next day, I went early to church, thinking that I can have the resources to study but the answer was no. Finally, I became wise enough, to depend it all on God! AMEN! I quiet down my heart in the cafe, and prayed quietly. I commit every single thing onto God's hand and believe Him that through Him, nothing is impossible. So here it comes, spelling bee prelims, I said my last prayer before going up for the competition. Miraculously, I passed the prelims easily and Im in the finals (YAY) PRAISE THE LORD!!!! =)

Well, since I'm in the finals, I planned to go all out and do my best for God and also for my cluster. After recieving those finalist word list (thank God this time it is just 200 words)... I immediately started studying in front of my computer (checking the pronunciation), hoping for the best. After weeks of studying, finally the day come. I was super nervous, to be honest, afraid that I will shake like how i used to in front of everyone. Despite that, I was confident, not over, cos I have studied everything, almost (of cus in the 200 words, there will be some that I'll forget or miss out). After being tested by some friends, I became more confident. Of course, again, before the competition started, I commit everything to God again through my prayers, believing that only with Him on my side I can win this competition, cus my competitor was quite a tough one i suppose.

So, the time has come, the competition started. Once our pronuncer (MISS KOH ESTHER wohoo!!) pronunced our word, we stunt. Although we both got the first word correct, the rest of the 4 were all wrong.  None of the words we study in the list they gave us came out!!! We became more nervous and nervous each time, hopping that this will end fast. (Well, we are still humans) So... it came to the lightning round where both of us have to press the buzer as quick as possible to answer and the first one who answers correctly wins. The funny thing is, when the word is being pronunced, both of us look at each other not daring to press the buzer. The lightning round became the 'waiting round'. After a few rounds of 'waiting', the host finally get bored and gave us a word 'UNBELIEVABLE'. I pressed the buzer first and spelt the word correctly and I won the competition (yay... not) This is the first time I actually won something but don't feel the joy over it. I felt sad and teared again... (weak'nya) All the weeks practicing preparing myself for this competition, have just been a waste like dat... That was what I thought first. I tried my best to let go of this, trying to forget 'bout this thing, and finally noticing that I was just escaping the truth and not facing it.

Again, I quiet down my heart, and prayed to God, asking Him to bring my joy back again. And now, I can feel joy and peace in me and Im happy again and as Chi-La as usual =) Foot drilling in the other hand went on very well, won a silver for that, but 1 thing I wanna thank God most for that is the fellowship and for those new friends I made ^^. This years emerge, although had cos me many tears, but I believe that God is stretching me, and preparing me for better things that are going to happen, especially leading and training up new batch of leader for my CF annual Easter Rally again. I know very well in my heart that it is gonna be very tiring and a tough job for me (add on the stress for facing SPM next year) but I am prepared and this time, more prepared to be stretched and used by God again and also believing that He will always be there for me, to give me rest and strength when I need it! =) I believe a better purpose in me! Emerge for me this year, one word to describe - UNBELIEVABLE!! =) Emerge is over right now, but we CHCians have just started to rise! AMEN!!!! Our God is a good God. =) ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS JUST ASK AND BELIEVE! (according to His will of cus) ^^... Really wanna thank God for giving me a chance to participate in these competitions, making me like things I dislike before. Also thank Him for placing me in such amazing church with amazing people!!!!! Of cus I also wanan thank my leaders and also those who asked me to join spelling bee and footdrill ^^ 

Love Germ =)   

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Letter to me by Braid Paisley

Letter to me - <<- to hear the song =)

Lyrics

If I could write a letter to me
and send it back in time to myself at 17
First I'd prove it's me by saying
look under your bed
There's a Skoal can and a Playboy
no one else would know you hid
And then I'd say I know it's tough
when you break up after seven months
And yeah, I know you really liked her,
and it just don't seem fair
All I can say is pain like that is fast, and it's rare.

And oh, you got so much going for you, going right
But I know at 17, it's hard
to see past Friday night
She wasn't right for you
And still you feel like there's a knife
sticking out of your back
And you're wondering if you'll survive *but*
You'll make it through this and you'll see
You're still around to write this letter to me.

At the stop sign at Tomlinson and Eighth
Always stop completely
Don't just tap your brakes
And when you get a date with Bridget
Make sure the tank is full
On second thought forget it
That one turns out kinda cool
Each and every time you have a fight
Just assume you're wrong and dad is right
And you should really thank Mrs. Brinkman
She spent so much extra time
It's like she sees the diamond underneath
And she's polishing you 'til you shine.

And oh, you got so much going for you, going right
But I know at 17 it's hard
to see past Friday night
Tonight's the bonfire rally
but you're staying home instead
Because if you fail algebra,
mom and dad will kill you dead *but*
Trust me you'll squeak by and get a C
And you're still around to write this letter to me.

You've got so much *up* ahead
You'll make new friends,
You should see your kids and wife
And I'd end by saying HAVE NO FEAR,
THESE ARE NOWHERE NEAR THE BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE.

I guess I'll see you in the mirror
When you're a grown man
P.S. go hug Aunt Rita every chance you can.

And oh, you got so much going for you, going right
But I know at 17,
it's hard to see past Friday night
I wish you'd study Spanish
I wish you'd take a typing class
I wish you wouldn't worry, Let it be
I'd say have a little faith, and you'll see.

If I could write a letter to me, to me...

Love Germ =)

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Sorry for all the late post, had been kinda lazy so far... Neways, these are the happenings so far =)  Sorry also for those blur pics, am using 'paint' -.-". It is the easiest =D

Micky Haircut =)

My baby boy had his haircut again =) so leng chai... as always ^^ Love him

Visit to Tenmoku Pottery

Together with Ee Laine, Jocelyn, Yi yin and some other students in school, we went to visit the tenmoku pottery factory weeks ago. We get to see and observe a little bit of how pottery works... Reminds me of Kim Bum... ahhh... =) Neways, after visiting the factory, we get to colour our own cup, and it was sent to the school few days ago. The colour we used before heating was red, but after heating, it turns brownish black because of the high heat preasure. We had some fun figuring out how to design our own cups and this is how mine turn up.

My Cup after heating, kinda cacated but loving it more and more

Crystal's Birthday Celebration ^^

November 9, a very special day to remember cos it is the one and only E35 + E39 CG leader, Crystal Low's birthday! We celebrated her birthday a day earlier in steak house, puchong. It was suppose to be a suprise for her when some of the leaders drop by after a while, but she knew partly like 99% of what is happening... Well... despite that, I think we had a great time =)

  E35 and E39 Crystal - The birthday Girl =)Crystal with Hazel and Siew Min

Happy 20th birthday again Crystal =) Remember, you are always a great leader ^^ We love you =) May God bless you abundantly ^^ 

Finally!! =)

The book I've been waiting for, finally out in Malaysia's bookstore... This is an awasome book!

Finally the book I've been waiting for after I've finished readding the 1st book came to Malaysia! Can't wait for the movie to come out... Hope it's gonna be nice! Can't wait for the last book too! =)

So this is what happened this month =) Oh... there is still one more thing I haven't post up - Marching Competition... Waiting for my medal 1st =D 

Love Germ =)

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Forgiveness + Friendship (2F's)

Lets Forgive  (< a link to a video... pls watch ^^)

"when deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive... forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future." - Mary Karen Read

Being a True Friend... it is not always about yourself... It is not whether " What if they don't friend me?" or " What if they are just pretending to be my friend?". Being a true friend is about you being someones friend regardless whether that person treats you as a friend or an enemy. Sometimes, people may only be your friend to use you, and when they find no use in you anymore, they will just throw you a side, betray you and come back to you again when they need you. Always choose to forgive. It may be hard, but it is not impossible. Those people may had never appreciated your kindness, and always take your love for granted, they may even lie about you, causing others to loose trust on you, but still... conitnue to love them, to help them whenever they are in need. 

Remember, when u 'be' their friend, it doesn't mean that automatically they will 'be' your friend. It is not about you, but it is about them. Being a friend is also when you do something nice for people and not always hoping for something back. You may bless that person over 100 times and he/she had never even said a 'thank you' before, but true love comes when you help them because you love them, and not because you want them to love you and to appreciate you. Always choose to loose a game to win a friend. Remember, your career or fame cannot care for you when you are sick, but your friends and family can. Therefore, never loose a friend to win a game. It is not worth it. You may have the money and the fame, but that is just temporary happiness... But winning a friend's heart is long-lasting joy. 

Never resist to be someones friend just because you are afraid that that person doesn't treat you as a friend. Think about this... If Jesus is ever afraid to be betrayed by His disciples and those that He had heal, or maybe afraid that noone will appreciate what He does for them, or maybe people will put the blame on Him and lie about Him although He is always doing the right thing and helping people... Will He choose to die on the cross for us? If Jesus ever think like that, we will still be a dreadful sinner... We won't be able to connect with God easily today. But NO... Although Jesus knows that His disciples will deny him, that everyone will betray Him, say lies about Him, curse Him and persecute Him, use His grace for granted and never appreciate Him,  HE STILL CHOSE TO FORGIVE US, and died on the cross for us, so that we can be holy once again. Imagine the pain Jesus was experiencing on the cross... not just physically, but all those betrays and unloyalty by His love ones... Is your cut deeper than His? However, He forgive us and love us. He is our true friend, a good example of what being someone's true friend could be like. And now, it is our turn to forgive others who had hurt us, to love them always and give our best to them. Hope to be a friend, and not always hoping for people to be your friend. Love others first. Take the first step, just as how Jesus had take His first step to love us first, forgive us, and died on the cross for us, before knocking on the door of our hearts for us to believe in Him. Let us learn how to forgive, and also to be a true friend. If you think that you are not loved, You are WRONG. Jesus loves you... That's why, he died on the cross for you. He is 'being' your friend, not because of what you've done and what you have not done, not because of you believing in Him or you 'being' His friend... but it is because of His great love for you. =)

Love Germ  

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AAR concert... haiz... dunno whether izit God punishing me for choosing to go for this concert instead of staying in church faithfully serving Him... It was like... no words ould express how i hated the wait. We went there since 4pm, waited under the hot sun for 2 hours, to ensure we will have a good view of the stage... Mana tau hor... when the gate opened, all the UNCIVILIZED late comers just ran infront and potong our place... Haiz... so everyone squeezed together just to get in. We were squeezed like hamburgers in your mouth for 1.30 hours... There were no fresh air at all... nearly fainted summore... 

After that, around 7.30, we finally managed to get in. Well, things went worse there. At first we were standing well at the middle, it wasnt that bad... at least we have fresh air. Then suddenly, those brainless people just come squeezing in armies. They were as stinky as a skunk, or perhaps worse...  Before even AAR appeared, my legs hurted. I was so afraid that i couldn't march the next day. Then it became worse. By time we were squeezed like sardins in a can, no place to even move our heads. Those brainless people still wanna squeezed in like no one bussiness. I felt like i was being molested cos everyone around was STICKED to each other... sweating!!! EWWWW!!!...( immediately bathed when i reached home). Anyway... after sometime, we couldn't stand the squeez anymore, so we fled to the back... it was soo much better (AWESOME!!) Never had appreciated Fresh Air that much. Well, it was 9.30pm  when AAR FINNALLY APPEARED! Hate to admit, but THEY were AWESOME, but not worth the wait. Well, famous artist are never puncual for their concerts... haiz... made us stand for 7 hours!!!!! leg pain like MAD!!!!!... so this is how the concert goes... for me. =)

Love Germ.

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